There is a peculiar honesty in those moments. Social masks, the polite armor she dons later, have not been affixed yet. The self that exists before the world calls is less concerned with coherence. She can, in those few minutes, glimpse her own contradictions without embarrassment. She notices the quiet collapses—habits she keeps because they are expected, not because they thrive. She notices the bright, stupid hopes she refuses to name except to herself.
The phrase "before waking up" appears to be the title of a specific photobook, video segment, or creative collection.
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: She is best known for her representative photo book, The Legendary Beautiful Girl Rika Nishimura .